I REMEMBER THE TIME
Can you remember the time when you first gave your live to Christ? Was it something memorable? Or do you remember the first few months of your initial walk with Christ? I remember my first months walking with Christ Hmmm, what a wonderful relationship with Christ it was. Before I go on let me clarify what I call my “first months” It wasn’t the first time I understood what is meant to be born-again. It wasn’t the first time I became born-again. It wasn’t the second time round when I went out for the altar call to become born-again or re-dedicate my life to Christ, but a few months after that on January 1998 when I was reading a Christian book I had come across. I realised truly at that point in my life, Christ was the one and only true way.
I immediately rededicated my life and it was the most beautiful experience henceforth. It was as if Jesus Christ was physically there with me and I could cast all my cares and burdens unto him. I knew that no matter what came my way, there was no need for me to worry. I had an unexplainable Joy bubbling from within my soul, I was very eager to hear and learn the word of God. I constantly desired to grow and did something about it. The difference with me now is that, though I desire and pray to grow I am not doing extremely much about it. Don’t get me wrong I am definitely a stronger Christian than back then, but I ask myself “what happened to me along the way?” “What happened to that unexplainable joy bubbling from within?” “What happened to the determination?” “What happened?” I continued to ask. The answer came when I read the article below by Oswald Chambers
God is saying to His people, “You are not in love with Me now, but I remember a time when you were.” He says, “I remember . . . the love of your betrothal . . .” (Jeremiah 2:2). Am I as filled to overflowing with love for Jesus Christ as I was in the beginning, when I went out of my way to prove my devotion to Him? Does He ever find me pondering the time when I cared only for Him? Is that where I am now, or have I chosen man’s wisdom over true love for Him? Am I so in love with Him that I take no thought for where He might lead me? Or am I watching to see how much respect I get as I measure how much service I should give Him?
As I recall what God remembers about me, I may also begin to realise that He is not what He used to be to me. When this happens, I should allow the shame and humiliation it creates in my life, because it will bring godly sorrow, and “godly sorrow produces repentance . . .” (2 Corinthians 7:10).
Many of us have a mental picture of what a Christian should be, and looking at this image in other Christians’ lives becomes a hindrance to our focusing on God. This is not salvation — it is not simple enough. He says, in effect, “Look to Me and you are saved,” not “You will be saved someday.” We will find what we are looking for if we will concentrate on Him. We get distracted from God and irritable with Him while He continues to say to us, “Look to Me, and be saved . . ..” Our difficulties, our trials, and our worries about tomorrow all vanish when we look to God.
Wake yourself up and look to God. Build your hope on Him. No matter how many things seem to be pressing in on you, be determined to push them aside and look to Him. “Look to Me . . ..” Salvation is yours the moment you look.
Then I realised what had happened, I had stopped looking unto to God entirely and started to let other things weigh me down. I had forgotten to cast all my cares and burdens unto him I had truly forgotten a lot. Today I will meditate on Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.